Who rules my Life? Do I use my mind for my purposes or my mind uses me for its purposes?
If I’m watching my mind I could notice all its goals: make simple things very complicated, create problems and negativity, make me right and others wrong, judge and criticize, make me feel lack of everything and […]

Who am I? An invisible pot in which Life is boiling.

There are only two reasons for suffering: either I want something I don’t have at the moment or I don’t want what I have.
But what I have is exactly what it is. My mind creates complains about it and makes me unhappy. But what I have is exactly what it is now, the “suchness” of […]

It’s easy to be unhappy, sick and poor. It’s much more difficult (but so COOL!) to be happy, healthy and wealthy.

The fact is just a fact. It’s your choice - to choose suffering about it or not.

OK! Now is 2011! Long time no posts in my diary.
My life has changed dramatically: divorce, moving to a new place, doing new business, meeting new people…
Up and down, up and down, again and again…
What else can I do if not welcoming  each moment of the life with gratitude and care?

My personal mantra was found in a forest while I was walking to the spring. There are only 4 words: Energy, Wealth, Youth, Success - visualized as a 4-petal flower growing on a stem called Love. Repeating this mantra non-stop I filled the sense of each word with my own vision and ideas.
Energy - this […]

I was walking through the forest using my usual path, when something stopped me. Suddenly, I felt the sharp necessity to switch into the “space of the forest” and to receive some important sign. I had the sense that this sign could come in any form - it could be visual, auditory, olfactory, tactile…
My body […]

When I was born, I was clearly 100% dependent on other people, especially my Mother. What I could really do to survive? Nothing. I only knew how to TAKE: food… care… attention… warmth… security…
Later on (in my childhood) it became not as easy as it was in infancy. Adults continued giving me everything, BUT  - […]

For the last year I was so busy with my Russian forum that I completely disregarded my English diary. But yesterday Chris reminded me about it, and I’m going to continue my life description…
What was the most remarkable event lately? Probably the discovery of my main fear - a fear of myself. I found out […]